it could have been a HAPPY birthday

it could have been a HAPPY birthday if i have spent the day with you

miss you so much my dear sister

happy 27 me!

my 27th birthday picture

thoughts on the upcoming election

A politician deserves to win if he knows the difference between "his accomplishments as a politician" and "his responsibility to the people," --because the things he will do during his term IS NOT HIS ACCOMPLISHMENT, IT IS HIS RESPONSIBILITY.

I maybe MALDITA... but I have a HEART ♥

I am not like them... I am different...

you could even call me unique.

Unique because I am one of the few people

who have morals and who have a heart

that hates to see people suffer...

I am not like them

because I find no pleasure in hurting other people

... I am one of the few.

I have been really struggling these past few days trying to resolve some issues that was caused by those mean people around me.  I never thought that people could really be so "mean"--and this is coming from a person like me who is a self-confessed "maldita."  What he/she/they have done to me, has really affected how I see myself, and at some point, it kinda ruined my self-worth.  But that is all over now, because there were a lot of people who have backed me up on one of the worst days of my life... and I know it isn't over yet.  Because I know in my heart that, that evil one won't stop until he succeeds... and I won't let that happen... ever.

And seeing myself now really makes me smile, for whatever happened that made me cry...there are still a lot of reasons to smile...because... my life is much happier compared to those people who were mean to me.

I maybe MALDITA... but I have a HEART ♥

i remember you

I Remember You by Skidrow

dedicated to my sister Ecathrene

One of our last few pictures together - December 2005

Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
The wind would whisper and I'd think of you
And all the tears you cried, that called my name
And when you needed me I came through


I paint a picture of the days gone by
When love went blind and you would make me see
I'd stare a lifetime into your eyes
So that I knew you were there for me
Time after time you were there for me


Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you


We spend the summer with the top rolled down
Wished ever after would be like this
You said I love you babe, without a sound
I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss


Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you


We've had our share of hard times
But that's the price we paid
And through it all we kept the promise that we made
I swear you'll never be lonely


Woke up to the sound of pouring rain
Washed away a dream of you
But nothing else could ever take you away
'Cause you'll always be my dream come true
Oh my darling, I love you


Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you


Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I'd wanna hear you say - I remember you

note to self

to my dearest zxiello,
when life kicks you in the ass,
roll up your sleeves and kick it back.
never let someone bring you down when you're up,
and never sink to a lower level
to be something or someone you're not.
you never have to impress someone that you don't like.

love you always,
♥♥♥ zxiello ♥♥♥

losing my religion

During this time of the year wherein people usually exhibits their faith and how they try to hold on to their religion in spite of all the hardships and struggles they are going thru, I on the other hand feels how much I have lost my faith. Before, I may not be the Sagrado Katoliko, but I have my own share of serving my religion. Being brought up in a what you can consider a religious family, I have been taught to pray the rosary at a very early age. Furthermore, I have studied on different Catholic schools in the country which were run by priests, nuns and brothers—that’s why I have an intense religious background. I have also served in the church as a commentator during ceremonies. However, what had happened in my life made my faith turned 180 degrees.

I lost my sister. No matter how hard I prayed—we lost her. I was praying the whole time trying to find answers to my endless questions….but still I got none. It would have made my life a bit easier if we had known the cause of her death…but what we have are just assumptions…no concrete medical explanations.

From then on, I’ve never stepped on the floors of the church I often went to…the church where me and my sister used to hear mass. Seeing the altar really made my knees shook…all I can see when I enter the church is how the priest blessed the human body of my sister for the very last time. I tried my best to fight this battle…but I still haven’t got the courage to overcome this. I know that what had happened should have made my faith grow stronger…but what happened was otherwise.

I know there will come a time that my road will lead me back to Him…I just don’t know when.